VairezChan

It was cold. It chilled my body as I suffer from the numbing pain. Then you came out of nowhere. Was it coincidence? Are you my savior at last? Or is this my doom? But one thing is for sure, you are the fire. I was doubtful of your flames, will it hurt? But I was attracted to your flames. You gave warmth to my cold life, and brightness to my dark world. I gazed up as if you were the sun to my lonely nights. I should've been contented. To be just near your fire, enjoying the warmth, watching your beautiful flames flicker against the dark blue sky. A snowstorm appeared, my life went colder. I was in a miserable mess. And soon, I was beggi

Have you ever wished to just dump cold ice on your heart to numb away the feelings? Have you ever wished to just cut your wrist as the problems flow? Have you ever wished to fly and soar into the sky as you hang on the ceiling? Have you ever felt no one but silence to embrace you? Or depression to entertain you? Have you ever wanted to sew your mouth shut from saying depressing and negative things? I know, depression is a big heavy word. For me, Depression is the one who chains me on the bed and rapes me out of my positivity and all sunshine-ness. It's not crying so much or wearing a sad face all the time. It's like you're a balloon with wa

I carefully closed the book and rubbed my eyes. I sighed. I stood up groggily from my comfy chair and walked like a zombie into the kitchen. I sighed. My eyes focused on the outside… I wish I can go out and have some fun. I sighed. I’m bored… I feel empty… It’s been days since I felt the warm touch of the sun. I sighed. I slowly stirred my hot coffee, inhaling the sweet addicting scent. I stopped. I sighed. I realized. I feel old. Is this what old people do? Alone, reading a book or two, drinking coffee, sighing every single second of their boring gray life. I sighed. I returned to my comfy chair, it creaked as I

The Goddess that I spoke of An angel from above Threw me like a trash Was she always this harsh? I gave up my everything For me to be her something Special, I mean But my efforts remained unseen I went totally insane And she's the one to blame I was just ignored My mind is now in discord She's my everything I'm her nothing I want to hurt her heart The same way she hurt my heart But I can't do it I don't want to quit I still care for her I still love her Forever.